Wednesday, July 30, 2008,Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Haha...my cousin in the same school as me has a lover haha but so sad she dun wan him must help them...hmm...must think how to help them together haha...today P.E so fun captain ball so fun until so sweayt...haha...win 2 only...haha...so sad:(Anyway i am serious now who ever want to be wif Natalie i will stay far far far away from u even if is my cousin...haha...so if i see u wif her or talk to her or watever i will still stay away from u haha...anyway i die also dun wan to be wif Natalie wan to be wif her stay far away from me... i dun wan to noe anything about her too... haha...ya that all...
BYEEE...
Sunday, July 27, 2008,Sunday, July 27, 2008
Yea!!!yesterday i watch the dark knights again haha it is awesome how i wish i can watch again...anyway it is the same if u wan to go wif NATALIE forget about me n the memories i and u had...i die also dun wan to go wif her...u wan go ahead i am not stopping u...u go wif her dun go wif me...anyway i am just a real transparent glass which cannot be seen...u go wif her go away from me u seem happier wif her den u r wif me nvm it dosen't seems that we will be like together like last time or maybe there will not be a chance anymore cause it is all so obvious that u r going to be wif her...i noe u will think i am jealous or something yes is true that im jealous or even being petty but i just hate that u ppl go wif her or something i dunnoe how to describe...i'm not important to anyone anyway i am just the extra wan like Shu Hui said at the skate park...ya...i dun think i am fit to be wif u all because when im wif u all i feel like i am just a transparent glass which cannot be seen...so wanna be wif NATALIE away from me nut at least tell me...this world is soon............
anyway same line again wif NATALIE,away from me...anything happen to her or something i dun wan to noe...
goodbye ppl wif NATALIE...
ALL IS A LIE...
Saturday, July 26, 2008,Saturday, July 26, 2008
Fine u wan to be wif Natalie go ahead fine la go wif her lor...everytime when i saw u wif her play wif her chat happily wif her i feel jealous angry i dun noe how to describe it seems that she is very important to u like this it seems that u n her have been friends or even best friend fine den go wif her i am nothing but just extra or even who comes between u n her fine den u seem happy wif her go wif her u wan to be wif her u could forget about me den no matter wat i juz dun wan to be wif her u wan to be wif her dun be wif me or u could juz forrget about me or the memories anyway wat the use to remember about the memories we had go n create a new memories wif her forget about me n the memories we had together wats the use for remembering the memories wif me in the memories now it seems she is more important ha to me not so if u wan to be wif her go wif her n forget about me n u can treat me as enimes or normal friend i die also i DO NOT want to be wif her...i seems nth to all of u anyway...everytime u talk to her or wif her chat wif her happily or play wif her i always thought that is just being pretending but slowly slowly it seems that she is even more important to u...all seems like a LIE...u wan to be wif her go away i dun wan to be wif her...but tell me first or show me by yr action...all is a LIE LIE LIE...to u she is even more important...go away if u wan to be wif her....ALL IS A LIE...U think others is more important den u but im just nothing fine den...i am nothing which is not important to anyone...
Saturday, July 19, 2008,Saturday, July 19, 2008
Haha...Finally i get back my money back...hahahahaha...went to catch a movie with my sister guess wat show?of course is that show The Dark Knight this show rocks alot wonderful marvellous show (etc)it rocks next time want to watch this show call me along i also want to watch i love this show i love this show alot...wanna know about this story ask me...but den yar nvm...haha...Anyway friendship problem still have not settlee but then still blur dunnoe wat to do...haha...i dun think u wanna noe wat happen actually nothing haha...nvm la...anyway gtg...i loveee the dark knights wanna see call me i want to see but den depend got time first...haha...later continue update maybe...haha...
Tuesday, July 15, 2008,Tuesday, July 15, 2008
It seems i just nothing why does friendship problem seems to be really a problem...why friend dun friend i am confused who to be with or be myself or wat i just wan to alone and not alone i am confussed somebody pls help me pls i dunnnoe wat to do wat have i done to have this happening to me help me pls...wat is happening to the world or something...somebody help me or guide me give me some advise tell me wat to do...why does friendship happens like this?how it happens?what causes it?...so wat is it?wat is means?...why why why...wat i done not enough or wat i have to deserve this...wat???help me ...i dunnoe anything somebody tell me something or help save(etc)me...i really dunnoe anything...am i somebody who i dun deserve to be friends wif?why am i the wan who losses everything no matter wat i willl lose something i dun wan to losse anything...am i a friend who u want to be wif?do uwan to be friends wif me?i just dun understand a thing...wat is happening somebody tell me pla tell me something...why is trust so easily breakable almost everything is easily breakable why somwbody tell me...nobody wans to be friend wif me...argh argh argh...why why why................................................
Friday, July 11, 2008,Friday, July 11, 2008
Yucks,gross.You would also be grossed out of you say it yourself.
I pity the birde, may it rest in peace, and boo to the inhuman thing
who killed it ):
Anyways, life isn't so great as I hope it would be.
Things never seem to be running smoothly,
and I am very tired facing all my problems.
However, I will continue on living each day to the fullest.
Personally, I think what we had in the past is impossibe to get back
I am tried of going through the same process all over again.
I tried to be there for you as a friend, but you kept pushing me away.
Coming to me only when you need help, but even so I am happy
because you are my friend.
oh, let's say, used to be friend
However, I had enough of this because
I can't continue taking that attitude.
Let the past remain as the past, because
I am facing the present head on, with or without you.
I am going to focus on my studies and not you anymore.
Because I don't deserve, the way you treat me.
So goodbye my friend.
I still love you, you can always come to me if you need help
I will always be beside you cheering for you.
but not the same as before, because you changed.
and I have change.
I think you know what I am getting at
I personally find it very upsetting that
you kept the bad memorises and threw away the bad.
I tried to fix this friendship but you just won't budge because
you kept your grudge.
Even, so you treated me as a useless sheet of being.
but not this time, because I made it a point to get on with my life
and not destroy it like you did to your life.
I can be stupid,
I can be cunning,
I can be selfish,
just like you. but I will not compromise, because is impossibe.
because I refuse to be like you, a backstabber, a liar,
a person whom make use of people.
because I will never be such a low-down person.
Sometimes, I wonder why you are never ashamed of your ways?
I hope I didn't make any ememies by saying out how I feel.
But I just feel very miserable for how things had turn out.
I am really happy with my new friends that I have made.
I love you all!! YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST GREAT!
Thanks for being there for me when I am feeling bad.
Sunday, July 6, 2008,Sunday, July 06, 2008
I'm such a fool real fool...it is so stupid of me..i .hate past...past made me remember about all the ungreatful memories...a total regret of relationship friendship disappointment disappointing my parents etc...i hate it is real stupid not to treasure it i hate it y is it like this...y y y yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....y must it happen...y can't i turn back time i turn back time i will treasure every moments every thing just turn back time i wan the happy momens or no i dun wan i dun wan time to turn back....i dunnoe i dunnoe i dunnoe...i dunnoe which wan...i hate it i hate it...i wan to be dead dead now...somebody save me help me pls pls pls...iwan to be dead dead kill me now now...i hate life...life suckssssssssss...i hate life....life really sucks 10 times more...i will be waiting for somebody to kill me...
Saturday, July 5, 2008,Saturday, July 05, 2008
I hate this week n last few weeks it sucks a lot lot lot...it is about friends problem...being said that i was the person who cause the divorce as in not really husband and wife not like wedding no is friend nvm u dunnoe...bloody hell they never get facts rite jump to conclusion...bastard...being called a bitch and many more vuglarites everything all the mean words...go try la being called like this how would u feel a apology maybe i would feel better but none...i dun wan this life so furstrating...life really sucks alot...i think i dun belong to anywhere even i go where i was a trouble maker...i hate my life kill me i wan to die i dun wan to live somebody kill me i dun even belong anywhere wat is the use of living...i only causing trouble...i think i owe u a apology i am Sorry real sorry...i will always welcome anyone just anyone to kill me...anyway thanks to Denise and Priya they help me alot n listen to me n accompany me thank you alot...Denise i'm sorry for everything i have done and thank you so much for everything n help me to tell them a Thank you i think is not enough...kill me i welcome u.........